April has been a desolate month for blogging. Prompts have been weak. Time has been short and inspiration has dwindled.
6 posts this month, including this one. Why? Why, when I wrote 23 posts in March?
What trying to write everyday has taught me, is that writing is like running a marathon. Go too fast, and you burn yourself out. Go too slow, and you get no benefit – might as well be walking, might as well be stopping altogether.
How do you find that happy balance? Between writing something, and writing nothing at all? And by nothing I don’t mean not putting pen to paper, fingers to keyboard and not writing a blog post – I mean writing something that feels empty, that evokes empathy and emotion just as much as reading a sign for the motorway.
I could write everyday, but it wouldn’t be enough. You can’t flick creativity on like a light switch. It does sometimes ‘just happen,’ but if you force yourself to write, if you force yourself to hone that creativity, maybe you will write something worth remembering.
But then what next? What happens after you’ve created something you’re proud of? When you’ve put in so many hours, so many sleep-deprived days filled with torment and frustration? You carry on of course. You pick up and carry on writing. You write for yourself, for your readers, for a publish deadline. You write just prove to yourself that you can.
I have often found myself this month starting a new blog post and then abandoning it, the inspiration for writing in the first place lost to me. But I don’t feel bad about this. We are human and sometimes the things we love doing aren’t always the things we want to do. Hobbies become habits, and unlike many things in our lives, this is not what keeps our hobbies alive.
We need to balance them out with other activities. We need to sometimes take a break – if writing became a habit for me, I would lose my sense of purpose for writing in the first place.
Writing is possibly the only hobby I have that is sorely misunderstood. When people ask me what I write about, I often want them to ask instead: why do you write? For that question will get them the answer they want. Writers do so because they want to share a message – and that message can present itself in many forms. Often a weak writer is not weak due to their writing skill, but their lack in making their message clear – to those who understand what they are trying to say.
But what are any of us really trying to say? What is the purpose of blogging, why do we blog? Why do we update statuses, tweets, pictures? Why do we look to others and judge their lives based on what they tell us online?
These questions you can ponder for a lifetime, and never really come to a satisfying conclusion.
May will be an interesting month for blogging. So watch this space.